Category Archives: Stuff I Actually Think

Peanut – Peanut Butter!

Gavin isn’t allergic to peanut butter anymore!  Yaaaaaay!

We had to teach him before he could talk to tell people, “No peanuts for Gavin.”  He’d had some bad reactions at a very young age and was tested to find he was allergic.  It can be deadly for some people, so we were careful.  The doctors didn’t know if he’d outgrow it or not.  But after a lot of blood work and hours of testing, he has been declared non-allergic to peanuts.

O happy day!

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Peanut M & Ms – the best way to enter the world of peanuts, a gift from his Nonna!

George-Bailey-esque Trouble

One of the best movie scenes of all times is the very beginning of It’s a Wonderful Life when you see the galaxy of stars and hear the chorus of prayers being offered to God on behalf of George Bailey who is facing such crisis, he is thinking of ending his own life.

“God help George Bailey,” you hear among a sea of voices.  Mr Gower prays, “I owe everything to George Bailey.  Help him, dear Father.”

The movie goes on to explore how important George Bailey was in the lives of everyone he knew.  He was truly a good person.  He truly helped people and sacrificed his own dreams for the good of others.  He was worthy of the prayers of the saints.

Not everyone lives such a valuable, selfless life.  But hopefully everyone knows people who will pray, people whose life have been touched by knowing them.  Wouldn’t you love to hear your name being offered to God like that?  Hearing everyone you know praying you up to the Father?

We know He hears us when we pray….Jeanie

NOTE TO SELF:  Lift up the people I know who may be in George-Bailey-esque trouble right now, whose skies may be arrow-blackened, who may be in a battle for their very souls…

Noose

“…the fear of man will prove to be a  snare…”  Proverbs 29.25

A snare is a dangerous trap, or as Mary Jean teaches, the equivalent of a noose around your neck – choking the life out of you.

The anecdote to fearing people and their opinions or expectations of you is not an assertive training class or joining Toastmasters, or puffing up your independance level.  That is a world system for sure.   The answer is to fear God alone, trust Him and then love.

There is no fear in love.  But perfect love drives out fear…” (1 John 4.18 NIV)

The Message translates it this way: The fear of human opinion disables, but trusting in God protects you from that (Prov. 29.25).   There is no room in love for fear.  Well-formed love banishes fear.  Since fear is crippling, a fearful life – fear of death, fear of judgement – is one not yet fully formed in love (1 John 4.18)

Now in pursuit of that kind of Love…J

NOTE TO SELF:  Fear of opinion, of rejection, of not having approval not only cripples me, it stops others from being a recipient of the love of God through me.  I have handicapped people as I have held the noose in place grasping at what will take my life rather than save it.  Ridiculous.

Nights in White Satin

Stormie ironed the 70 yards of white bridal satin comprising the ceremony backdrop for 4 hours last night.

Today, I am creating and finishing up the 60-foot satin aisle runner.  It is 50″ wide and ever-so-much-more elegant than the thin papery/fake fabric ones you can purchase.  I have personalized it for the bride and groom.  A little sewing, a lot of ironing, some rolling and voila, aisle runner almost done.

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These are the Days

These are the days.

You dream about them in February, get giddy with excitement in April, work long hours to make them happen in May and then all things come due.  And breakfast?  Is stir-fried carrots and peppers and baby green beans and sugar snap peas and red-red tomatoes sizzling in olive oil with garlic and just the right amount of Kosher salt with a side of cold, crisp cucumber chunks for dessert. This is when the garden pays off.

The hail aftermath.

I have waited to do much to try to see what will make it and what is just done.  Two cucumber plants that basically have no leaves left have decided, in one last-ditch effort to pro-create, to flower profusely.  The stem is badly damaged and the lacy, brown-edged confetti that was once the large green leaf flutters in the breeze.  I don’t think I could actually get a good cuke from a leafless plant, but shouldn’t I allow it to try?

The peppers stripped of their leaves put all of their effort into maturing the fruit and I got a nice harvest this morning.  Several pepper plants are going to bounce back nicely, I have a feeling.  I harvested some nice big poblanos this morning.  Chile rellenos, here I come!

The eggplant looked terrible on top, but below, protected, are several perfectly formed and hail-beating-free purple eggplants growing.

The cukes were damaged on the outside, but inside, protected and delish.  But the zucchini and squash, so tender and beat to a pulp have rotted.  Boo hoo.

Our neighbors to the north had no damage to speak of.  None.  How is this possible?  The same lilies I have that just got devastated stand healthy and proud in their yard.  Our front pot holding many of the same flowers as theirs got pummeled-the flowers strewn all over the driveway.  Theirs-literally 20 yards away did not seem to lose a single bloom.

Is this what is meant by “it rains on the just and on the unjust?”  That sometimes things just happen and they can happen to good people and lesser with no regard or distinction?  I hope we are the good people in that scenario.  I hope it “hailed fiercly on the just.”

Other garden news.

Picked the last of and pulled the sugar snnaps today.  They were doing OK, but don’t produce well in the heat.  I could sow another batch for fall, but probably won’t with these days being wedding and fest-driven.

Tomato sandwiches are a delight to the soul.

That’s about it…Jeanie

NOTE TO SELF: Stop and smell the basil every day.

Miss you, babe

I miss you.

Twenty-eight years of you and still, I have not had my fill.  You are only across the state, but it seems just as far as if you were across the ocean.

The evening is perfect.  If you were here you’d make me quit working to join you on the swing. 

Thank-you for stocking the fridge for me and filling up my tank and for your help on my projects before you left and for marrying me 28 years ago. 

I miss you, babe.  I’d marry you all over again, too.  xxxooo.

Robbin’s Wedding is almost here

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Robbin is getting married.  She is bold and bright, simple and playful, timeless and youthful. It will be crisp and clean with a nod to design from the graceful past.   She loves purple and yellow (dare I say “mimosa“??) and mason jars and field flowers. 

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And she is popular.  She is marrying Jake in front of family and hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of friends.   There are massive amounts of thick white bridal satin going into the design.  White picture frames as small as 5″ x 7″ and as large as 6′ x 8′ (yes, 6-feet by 8-feet) will frame the love they share.  A giant frame “chandelier” will mark the dance floor, a la Anthropologie.

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I have lots of inspiration pictures.  We used to own a frame shop and I find I still love them.  All of us gathered our cast-off frames (so it is a “green” event as well) and the wedding will be simply picture perfect!  Here are a few of the images in the file.  Can’t wait to see how it will really turn out in a few days!

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Paint a frame you have grown tired of.  You will love it all over again!…J

Just when you think you have it all together…

Over the weekend I looked around the yard at the wildly blooming lilies and pots full of colorful flowers.  I was happy to have harvested 5 more tomatoes along with lettuce, sugar snap peas and green beans.  The cukes were blooming their heads off and vining with big, full leaves; the zucchini and summer squash just birthing the first, small fruit.

I was thinking: nice.  Everything is in bloom and green and enjoyable with so little work from me right now.  All is well.  All is as it should be.

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Loud tornado warning sirens and unexpected gusts of wind last night night changed all of that.  Two storms blew through with hail and torrential rain from 11 pm until the early hours this morning.

Very suddenly, things have changed.  Without warning there has been loss.  I looked around at the wreckage early this morning and I see that some things are gone.  Flowers petals were beat from their stems and litter the ground with green leaves.  Shrubs are flattened, but given time will likely pull themselves back up by their bootstraps.  But there is loss.  Some damage is too severe.   Some things will never recover.

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Pictured above: the mowed-over hollyhocks, the battered elephant’s ear; I think the onions gave their lives for this volunteer marigold which is seemingly unscathed; and the pummeled lemon cucumbers.  Sad.

Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,

yet I will rejoice in the LORD,
I will be joyful in God my Savior.

Hab. 3.17, 18

 Some peppers plants are finished now, leafless.  But they provided protection to the plants to their right.  Dave’s mammoth grill gave some covering for some of the tomato plants and the herbs held up pretty well.  The things that will survive will be all the more treasured now, with greater gratefulness. 

Thank-You, LORD, for what remains.

Sanctify by Delirious, song for a Monday night

The question is: can God fix what I have messed up?  Can He redeem what I have squandered?  Will He?

 

Sanctify

Here I am in that old place again
Down on my face again
Crying out I want you to hear my plea
Come down and rescue me

How long will it take
How long will I have to wait?

And all I want is all you have
Come to me, rescue me,
Fall on me with your love
And all you want is all I have
Come to me, rescue me,
fall on me with your love

Sanctify I want to be set apart
Right to the very heart
Prophesy to the four winds
And breathe life to this very place

How long will it take?
How long will I have to wait?

And all I want is all you have
Come to me rescue me,
Fall on me with your love
And all you want is all I have
Come to me rescue me,
Fall on me with your love

Lifted up I’ve climbed with the strength I have
Right to this mountain top
Looking out the cloud’s getting bigger now
It’s time to get ready now

Written by Stuart Garrard/Martin Smith ©1997 Curious? Music UK

Incomprehensible Love

Excerpted from From Eternity to Here~Rediscovering the Ageless Purpose of God by Frank Viola, Chapter 7: Fallen Yet Cherished

“…run to the Lord when you sin, not from Him.

…He saw your mistakes before you ever made them.  So He’s not surprised by them.  Nor did they prevent Him from choosing you to be His before you penetrated the womb of your mother.  In fact, distancing yourself from the Lord due to a

guilt headache and a condemnation hangover

hurts Him far more than the sin that created those feelings.  (Ponder that last sentance for a moment.)…Hiding from the Lord is a

spiritually-transmitted disease. 

It’s in our bloodstream and the marrow of our bones.  It began with the first man who hid Himself from God in shame (Gen. 3.8-10).  But just as He did with Adam, God clothed your nakedness.  Not with skins of animals, but with the righteousness of His own Son.  For this reason, the Lord invites you to love Him despite your fallenness.

He made Him who knew no sin to be sin on our behalf, so that we might become the righteousness of God in Him.  (2 Corinthians 5.21 NASV

You can chisel it in stone: the Lord’s love is given to you without strings or conditions…your good works (or lack thereof) do not affect His love for you…God loves you simpley because He chose you in His Son and  He loves His Son without condition.

He loves you with an everlasting love (Jeremiah 31.3).

So take heart: you are some one that God so loves.  He has drawn you to Himself.  Whenever you turn to Him, you are ushered before the smiling face of a God whose heart beats with unfailing kindness. 

Are you overtaken with a sense of unworthiness?

Are you humbled with your own sinfulness?  Let me remind you.  When your  Lord hung on that bloody cross, He was in far worse condition than you or I could ever be in.  He was made to be sin (Isaiah 53.4, 2 Cor. 5.21)…the sins of the the worls – past, present, and future – were all laid upon Him, and He became sin personified.  And yet, the Father still loved Him.

All that to say, in the moment when you feel the most unworthy, you are the most welcome.

[Read: Hebrews 4.16; Ephesians 3.12; 1 John 1:9, 2:1-2; Revelation 12:10-11]

Consequently, if the “accuser of the brethern” accuses you or me of some sin, the Lord’s response is, ‘It’s too late!  I’ve already fallen in love with them.  It’s too late!  I’ve already graced them out of…my merciful nature.  It’s too late!  They are acquitted.  They are forgiven.  They are cleansed by My Son’s blood.’

This ought to move you.  This ought to impress you.  This ought to baffle and overwhelm you.

Oh, the unimaginable depth of the love of Christ.

What amazing love.  What flawless love.  What unshakeable love.  What irrevocable love.  This is the love with which your God loves you…”

When will I get it?…Jeanie