Category Archives: Stuff I Actually Think

Ode to Melancholy

“…the wakeful anguish of the soul…”  John Keats

‘Cause we were all so young and foolish, now we are mature.
And those were the days of roses, poetry and prose
And Martha all I had was you and all you had was me.
There was no tomorrows, we’d packed away our sorrows
And we saved them for a rainy day.

Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

And there’s no misery ooooooh oooh like the misery
I feel in me, gotta find me an angel in my life

I left my tender seedlings out last night and some frost bit them.  *sigh

Two

Two large, colorful, beautiful Monarch butterflies just flew about the backyard, diving and swooping, flirtatiously fluttering for full effect. 

I, in turn, thanked them wholeheartedly for stopping by (clapping and cheering at their arrival) and have given them full use of the yard at their discretion.  “Bring friends,” I encouraged.  For until I have filled the pots with annuals (we mustn’t let temptation for color coax us into doing this earlier than Mother’s Day here in Zone 5), the Monarchs shall be the kaleidescope of wonder.

The birds seem ever-so-slightly put out at my response to the lovlies, having provided song and sweetness for months now.  But they will get over it when they see what I have in mind for them

To be continued….

Post Script ~ The conflict with the interloping garlic chives continues this year.  As if I did not not win some of the battles last season?  They are as fat and invasive as ever.

Unrelated? Hmmm…

Mr 3-pound Toad had still been in hiding as of yet this spring.  But major construction development and rehabilitation of his neighborhood (trying desperately to remove the hollyhocks from the pond area and move them waaaaaay back by the fence) exposed his fat-winter self.  Interestingly, it also revealed my reading glasses, missing now for three days. 

Coincidence?  I think not.  It was him or the big, juicy worm. 

  trying to hide

I’ll be watching them.  And reading again.

earthday.

This is in the church driveway today, about halfway to the building (on the way in to the Heaven Fest office for a meeting).  The earth.  The dandelions.  The rolling, dark clouds.  It was a beautiful day.

  

taken with a very inexpensive camera by a pretty terrible picture-taker. : )  Yet, kinda beautiful!

Thunder showers!  Lightening!  Started out raining like crazy (way, way-low visibility on the way to Longmont).  Cleansing rain, abundant moisture.    Then sunny, warm, bright and beautiful.  Then this gorgeous weirdness (dark on the south, sunny and blue on the north).  All fading into a deep reverberating-blue, spring evening.

The earth is the Lord’s and everything in it.

Earth day = The LORD’s Day!

NOTE:  99 days until Heaven Fest!  www.heavenfest.com

Le moi d’Avril

[French} Le moi d’Avril = The month of April [English]

“April is the cruelest month,

breeding lilacs out of the dead land,

mixing memory and desire,

stirring dull roots with spring rain.”  ~ T. S. Elliott

  

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Tiny leaves and buds have appeared on the miniature lilac near the patio.  I love lilacs (part of the unruly olive family).  LOVE them!  Did you know that, situated properly in full sun and well-drained soil they can last for centuries?  Someday I intend to have a secret writing garden surrounded by lilacs where I shall where a yellow dress and sip tea, eschewing all forms of modern technology.  Yes.  I will do this.

You may visit me there, but your phone is not welcome.

I’m not finished

Observe, if you will, the first sentence.

And the second, for that matter.

Tara had a couple of rather persnickety English teachers during her high school career who would candidly point out to me Tara’s seeming inability to write a simple sentence, for she would use commas and semi-colons and colons to make her point without taking a breath and the ‘period,’ as it were, was a rare find in her one-page essays, causing me no shortage of embarrassment, I assure you, for I knew she had inherited this English-teacher-frustrating trait from none-other than her beloved mother, that being me, it so happens; and so, while I wanted her to do well and excel in writing and possess a great mastery of the language arts, I also understood, while said teachers obviously did not, that Tara is a master communicator, well able to make not only her point, but to make it in such an interesting way that an overuse of the period-as-punctuation is not necessary, but rather over-used in our short-attention-spanned society.  Sad.  Very sad, indeed.

The period-punctuation gives people too many opportunities to escape my words.  I am most likely not finished.  So don’t try getting away.

  

The book is inscribed inside as having been owned by one Mr. Harry Story of Great Falls and is dated 5/13/12 – almost exactly 98 years ago!  Image on the right has in quotes: “Is it because we are merely attractive that you mentioned the relationship?”  *smile…

The book page pictured (top) is Japonette (c) 1912, by Robert W. Chambers [1865-1933].  I feel a strong affinity toward his sentence style.  I don’t think. we. need. as. many. periods. as. they. tell. us.  I say let’s make people stay in there until the point emerges!  Yes.  I do.   Especially since sometimes, yes, I wander and the point may seem way down the road.  It is coming.  Wait for it.  I will make it.  I promise.  Eventually.  But not too soon. 

N O T E :By the way?  Tara was an A student in English.  No worries.  And when she writes?  She writes well.  I think it was the one year I homeschooled her.  Yes.  I believe I will.  Take the credit.  For the lack of periods.  And how good.  She is.  Period.

“Presently she caught his eye and made him a pretty gesture.”

“‘I wonder just how innocent we really are,’ she said.”

MORE ABOUT THE BOOK:  I actually bought it at a used book store in Montana because it was illustrated by none other than Charles Dana Gibson [1867-1944]  himself, the great “Gibson-girl” illustrator, whose glorious images of curvaceous, bold women with nonchalantly up-swept yet-tumbling-tendriled hair, make me glad to be womanly.

Bethany, Churchill and Phil Keaggy!

Phil Keaggy.  I mean – come on: PHIL KEAGGY!

He is in Colorado this week:

http://westword.backpage.com/Events/phil-keaggy-in-concert-with-special-guests-churchill/4601011

And Churchill is opening.  SO COOL! 

Because not only is Churchill really good (really good), Bethany Kelly is in Churchill and she is awesome/talented/sassy/gorgeous (and practically family)!

Churchill:

 http://www.churchilltheband.com/

Bethany:

http://bethanykelly.tumblr.com/

Bethany’s parents:

http://cakboliv.wordpress.com/  http://robkelly.typepad.com/

I am surrounded by greatness!

springstuff, the list

“Imperfection is beauty,

                                    madness is genius

and it’s better to be absolutely ridiculous

                           than absolutely boring.” ~ whosaidthis?

 

And isn’t April ridiculously mad and delicious?

  

Elise-the-Niece, the very personification of spring, is here for a visit on her way from almost a year on the YWAM base in Hawaii back to Aberdeen, SD and her family.

Things of spring: MY LIST~

  

Hunter, Gavin and Guini; Guini and Averi ~ artwork on the patio

Sidewalk chalk and seed packets.

Salad greens and spring showers.

Blue skies and garden bunnies.

Family birthdays and family food daze.

Birdsong and backyard play.

Sugar snap peas and Cherry Belle radishes.

Grandbebe chatter and catching up with neighbors over the fence.

Home Depot then home work.

Sidewalk sweeping and wagon pulling.

Clean windows and fresh air.

The boys building forts and digging holes for buried treasure.

Perennials popping up around the pond.

Sprouts in the garden and sproutonline.com

Petunias and pansies.

Lilies and lilacs.

The lawnmower’s roar and squeak of the swing.

Azure-blue dusk and snow-capped mountain horizons.

The smell of hot soil and the intoxicating scent of wet cedar mulch.

Fertilizer and polished furniture.

The whoosh of kids swinging and the wind’s soft whisper.

The grill fired up and sweet girls dressed up.

Terra cotta pots and tomato seedlings.

Bright lights and short nights.

 

The Kelley kids at church one evening last week; Elise-the-niece with Amelie Belle, the newest of the grandbebes.

April hath put a spirit of youth in everything. ~William Shakespeare

  

Stormie and Amelie; GemGem and her Aunt Tara; Stormie and Guinivere.  At Stormie’s family birthday dinner.

 

Celebrating with mi familia!  Happy Birthday, again, Stormie Dae Rhoades, spring baby and lovely girl!  The grandbebes eating. 

In springtime, love is carried on the breeze. Watch out for flying passion or kisses whizzing by your head. ~Terri Guillemets

  

Wrex and Stef with the birthday girl.  The cookbook holder Wrex made for Stormie with his own two, bare hands!  Same as the high-ticket model at Anthropologie.  But better!  Wrex practicing eating while holding a baby.  He vows a tiny human being will not interefere in this department!

If you’ve never been thrilled to the very edges of your soul by a flower in spring bloom, maybe your soul has never been in bloom. ~Terri Guillemets

  

The coconut cake for Stef and Elise, icing/filling kinda to die for.  Tara singing a song Stormie wrote for part of her birthday gift.  Fruit Pizza is ever-so-much-more-scrumptious the next morning.  Approximately 3872 calories.  And I HOPE I am only kidding!

  

Outside after dark: the boys building their fort.  Averi and GemGem, best cousins…just before the tragic accident.  Gemma “ran right into” Hunter’s construction site and got quite the owie on her face.  But a band-aid and a kiss makes everything better.  That and getting some attention.

“Spring has returned. The Earth is like a child that knows poems.” ~ Rainer Marie Rilke

{sigh}

I love spring.  And I LOVE lists!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JOE!

J o e- theBROTHER…49 years in 10 minutes flat!

 

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My little brother, Joe, turns 49 today.  When we were little, when we were “Jeanie and Joey” way back when, he was my best friend and confidante.  I was bossy and he needed to be bossed.  I was forthright and opinionated and he was the gentle listener who appreciated my opinions.  I talked.  He listened and drew pictures.  He became an accomplished artist and I, a talker.

One time he quietly saved me from drowning and another time he saved me from something much worse.  He risked a lot to be in my corner during a really hard time…or two.  He has spent his life teasing me, tormenting me, aggravating me and protecting me.  I have spent mine acting like I am always right and challenging him to boxing matches (which I win, of course, because gentle Joe would never hurt a girl). 

For a lot of years, marriage and raising kids and careers and life made what we once shared so closely (he was my first nap and room-mate) a sweet, but distant memory.  But then the melancholy of years and a deep, abiding love reminded us to reset our priorities and to be not only a brother and his big sister (he now calls me his “little sister” which is all the more reason to love him), but to be friends – the kind who are God-sent and will never let you go.  For that is what I have in Joe.

During those interim, busy-life years, I once almost lost Joe permanently and I didn’t even know.  I was living my  own life and he was dying, coding repeatedly one night after he collapsed doing police work at the airport.  Thinking now about what I’d have missed if he hadn’t made it makes me nag him and check his pacemaker for malfunction when I see him.  His strong, steady heartbeat is very important to me.

He was my first best-friend.   At times, moving around like we did as kids, he was my only friend.  Now?   Friends to the end!

Forgive my sentimentality, but I have put together 10 minutes (!!!) of pictures of me and ‘the Joey.’  And I added “mood music” because this is how I want to tell him how happy I am that he was born on April 14, 1961.  Plus I am all melancholy and sentimental. 

I know you are probably thoroughly embarrassed now, Joe-Joe, but I don’t care.  It is what I do.  You KNOW I’ve got the “Joey-Joey-Joey-Joey

down in my heart!”  And I love ya!  HAPPY BIRTHDAY!  So glad, so so glad you were born to be MY brother!

 

Now and Forever by Carole King

Now and forever
you are a part of me
And the memory cuts like a knife…

Now and forever
I'll remember all the promises still unbroken
And think about all the words between us
That never needed to be spoken
We had a moment
Just one moment
That will last beyond a dream,
Beyond a lifetime
We are the lucky ones
Some people never get to do
All we got to do
Now and forever
I will always think of you
Didn't we come together
Didn't we live together
Didn't we cry together
Didn't we play together
Didn't we love together
And together we lit up the world
I miss the tears
I miss the laughter
I miss the day we met
and all that followed after
Sometimes I wish I
could always be with you
The way we used to do
Now and forever
I will always think of you

Now and forever
I will always be with you

Happy Birthday, Joseph Allen Moslander

 

 

Sound Effects: Twenty-six things

“Music to my ears.”

Means:  It was exactly what I wanted to hear.  I like that. 

Do you hear what I hear?

Last week during our “school time,” Guini and I looked up www.redlobster.com to see what they had happening {LOBSTERfest!}.  You have GOT to go to their site.  The sound, all hot and sizzling and wood-crackling, is magnificent.  Guini watched the home page for several minutes, mesmerized, her mouth watering as she watched and listened.  She licked her lips. 

Wow.  Red Lobster did that well.  They just added the sound of their food to the look of it.  Can the scent be far behind?  Is that the next thing our computers will bring to us?

I’d actually already started this LIST of sounds I love a couple months back just because I love lists.  You know how certain sounds can grate against your nerves and others can make you smile?   I mean, the grandkids getting the giggles brings absolute, unbridled joy to me.  A haunting violin melody in minors can stir deep emotion and melancholy.  But of course, ‘nails on on a chalkboard’…(ew)…And who can deny the effect a certain song has on you when it comes on the radio.  Suddenly you’re 17 again, transported back in time and even though you’re driving the grandkids around, you are there again- young and in love with love, not a wrinkle on your face, as if you have never received mail from the AARP.

Fast Company recently reported on a study that says that though a baby’s giggle is still the most addictive sound to people these days, right behind that is a vibrating phone (which was initially considered to be “silent” but indeed has its’ own sound-which we all immediately recognize) and the things that follow are also techie-sounds now: Intel, T-Mobile ringtone, AT & T ringtone, stuff like that.  It used to be things like birds singing or the waves of the ocean, but the last 10 years have changed things.  Wow, we are going to lose some of the melody of life, I fear.  At the very least the song is changing quickly.

 XSssssssssssss……..

After Guinivere and I visited the seafood restaurant’s website, I thought of adding Red Lobster’s homepage to my list because they definitely hit on a sound I enjoy, but instead, Guini and I just met Tara and Hunter and Mandy and Auburn there for lunch today.  Because a sound can pull you in.  It did.  The shrimp was sizzling and salty, lemon squeezed over rich, tangy garlic butter; the delicately seasoned seafood linguine, sublime, mmmmmm.  Wish I could give you a taste.  But instead, here is my favorite sounds list.  What are yours – do YOU hear what I hear??

 

Best cousins, Guini and Hunter.  Guini, Hunter and Auburn at the old Northglenn Red Lobster.

My JOYful sounds LIST!~

  1. Bacon sizzling.
  2. “That’s my Nonna.”  Hunter said to a friend. *smile…
  3. GemGem doing ‘babytalk’ as we pretend she’s still  a baby (to me she is).
  4. Rushing river barreling by while I sit in the sun on the cabin deck just above Peaceful Valley.
  5. Crackling fire.
  6. A crackling fire with dry leaves rustling about (autumn).
  7. Steaks on the grill.
  8. The family splashing in the backyard pool.
  9. Birds singing.  Or just yapping their heads off.
  10. The breeze through early summer leaf-full trees.
  11. A cow mooing in a field.
  12. Crickets on a summer night.  Whether they are singing, rubbing their legs together, trying to get a date or all of the above, that is a summer evening!
  13. A baseball game, the crack of the bat on the ball.
  14. A genuine conversation between caring people with no sarcasm involved (which usually means I am only listening).
  15. Tredessa’s slender fingers flying over her keyboard, 120 wpm.
  16. The washer and dryer running.  There is a simple, rhythmic sequence ~ that pulsatory sound of water reverberating through the house. 
  17. Thunder.
  18. Rolling thunder, especially. And a steady rain on the roof before sun-up.
  19. Opening a can of Diet Pepsi.  Pouring it over ice.
  20. Fireworks on the 4th of July.  Not so much 9 days later, though.
  21. My kids singing.
  22. My grandkids telling me anything.  Anything at all.  Their voices are like honey to me…
  23. The resounding roar of laughter and discovery, teasing and competing, jokes and stories and grandkids-swinging-from-chandeliers at the many, many family dinners and celebrations we enjoy.  We’re not a quiet, formal bunch.  It gets loud and rambunctious.
  24. A heartbeat.  The steady throb reaches to the soul and tells the undeniable truth. 
  25. Pillow talk.  Kind words.  Promises.  I love you. 
  26. Silence.  Yes, there is a sound to silence.  I used to be afraid of it, uncomfortable in letting it continue too long (like radio “dead air,” which you never want), so I’d fill it with lots of sound from some source or another.  But now?  I love the sound of it.  I cherish the white beauty of it and how it frames the rest of what I hear in silk-soft puffiness.  Muting and muffling the harsh, protecting and presenting the sweet.  Silencio, please

Shhhhhh….listen.

 

Oh, and, Happy Birthday, David Cassidy ~ whose singing still tops my list of things I love to hear!